Sunday, August 22, 2010

Ceramics... for now

Last week I started classes. So far I am only in a ceramics class, but I will use it for potential Christmas gifts and hopeful profits. I have know the instructor for almost ten years, and he his more than happy to see me and have me around. I'm ok just taking ceramics right now, but he's letting me get away with murder basically. "You can do whatever you want." He wants me to do my best to work something out with the Printmaking instructor, since I said I was planning to apply to grad school, but I'm not so sure once again. The facilities are horrible in the print shop, mainly because the shop aide has been away and hardly anyone seems to care for neatness, and it's smaller than my room. The Printmaking teacher seems cool, her work is very modern and nontraditional, which is fine and may be more help in my own work, but she can't add me right now. She teaches all three printing classes at once, thus she can only have a total of 20 students. If I do get added, I will be limited on what I can do, even when it comes to intaglio. I need to stop complaining and get some work done...

As for Grad School. Once again I'm thinking it's a no go. Yes, I would have to apply for Fall 2012 now, since I have done absolutely nothing, which is ok with me, but what is making me think that Grad School isn't going to happen is because I constantly am focusing on the negatives: At least 3 years of just School, more loans, after Graduating having to bounce around trying to find a job at a college/university (which only guarantees part-time and a semester), also, I would like to start a family soon, and school isn't ideal with that in mind. Yes, it seems selfish, but I also told someone I probably would drop my career, whatever it is, if my family needed me, priorities first.

I still haven't gotten off my butt and found a church to attend out here. I am being lazy and giving excuses of being too busy or having things to do, which in most cases it's true, but I'm sacrificing fellowship for work.

I'm going to try to post more on here, hopefully I don't crash and burn again.