I don't know, things have been very stressful. I don't know if it is the way others are expressing issues involving me or if it's the assumptions that are made in regards to these issues. To be honest, I'm getting really tired of it all. I really do not like being viewed as someone I'm not. I'm trying not to take this to heart, but I never ever try to build myself up as something I'm not. Or imply I'm doing things in that manner without consulting others or following instructions.
Jason says I am a rules freak. Maybe it was my upbringing. I follow the rules, instruction, and guidelines to the best of my ability. Don't get me wrong, I'm sure I don't follow everything to the T, but I try really hard to be on the up and up. Rules are there for safety and logical reasons, or that's how I look at it.
I'm sorry for this post. This just hit me this morning and seems to be happening a lot lately, which is why I'm wondering if it's me. But not to sound like a jerk or righteous, I doubt it is me.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Friday, December 9, 2011
Christmas is coming, and I'm no where near ready for it, but then again I am. Jason and I are still trying to figure out if we go or stay for Christmas. It would almost been fun to go what we did last year, minus the proposal. But with his work schedule we would have to leave Christmas Day and money is tight. Also, it's our first year together as husband and wife and it would be nice to spend it just he and I, but what would we do all day? Jason keeps saying we should start some kind of tradition, but his "ideas" are ridiculous and he doesn't mean them. I'm thinking of making us stockings, even though we both already have some from our parents, but this could be a new tradition. Plus, I need to sew.
I really want to see my family, haven't seen them since the wedding three months ago, and it's hitting me harder as each month goes by. Though I wish I was living in CA with my family and getting more opportunities to see them, I really like my job with FH. I do plan to head out in January for my sister's baby shower to which I will be driving. But I'm still excited to be there...
I really want to see my family, haven't seen them since the wedding three months ago, and it's hitting me harder as each month goes by. Though I wish I was living in CA with my family and getting more opportunities to see them, I really like my job with FH. I do plan to head out in January for my sister's baby shower to which I will be driving. But I'm still excited to be there...
Saturday, October 1, 2011
I Have a Purpose
If you haven't read Rick Warren's Purpose Driven Life, you should. It's not an amazing book, but definitely hits some key points that everyone can use or be reminded of.
This week has been amazing! A week ago, I found a posting for a job that just seemed to fill my spirit with so many emotions. After praying, crying, and talking with Jason about it, I applied and put it in God's hands. Literally five hours after I submitted the application, I got a call for an interview opportunity with them. Yes, I have experienced this before, but this was different! I could feel God working, and it was amazing to even just have the opportunity to interview. So Monday, 2pm was my slot with Food for the Hungry.
A friend of mine sent me an article about interviews and wedding rings. After reading it, I talked to Jason a bit about it. "So just wear your band." My engagement ring is pretty big, not my choice. I'm fairly simple, but Jason did the picking and that's what he felt I deserve. That morning, I took my engagement ring off, looked at my hand and realized, "If they judge me on what's on my hand, I don't want to work for them." So I left my rings on.
I get there, 20 minute drive down one highway, but I'm an hour early. So I sit and sit, read an magazine I brought with, and did my best to save gas but not over heat in the Phoenix heat. I was so nervous, my hands were shaking and I just kept talking to God. I finally decide to go inside, and I'm immediately greeted by two ladies (about my age or a little older). Next thing I know, I'm in a personal conversation with the "President of First Impressions" or the Receptionist. Sharing where we are from, me being only married for 2 weeks and moving to Phoenix. It was nice to just have someone willing to just talk and sort of make the whole thing a bit less formal. I never once felt awkward. Final, one of my potential interviewers comes and takes me back to the Director's office. As we were waiting for the Director, she asked me about myself, which after a few sentences I blurted out, "I'm really nervous." We both laughed, and she said she knows the feeling, she was in my situation a few years back, once again, taking the edge off a bit more. She shared a bit more about what the job is and the community of the whole organization.
Finally the Director comes in, and it's laughs and giggles, which just helped me more and more feel more comfortable. The interview went smoothly and actually was really enjoyable. It had to be the best interview I have ever had. I was really excited to be able to share my background including my faith. Some of the questions I gave interesting answers to, but at least I can say I answered them all honestly! I almost started to cry during it, when talking about the emotions and feelings I had when reading the post for the position.
I left the interview feeling so blessed. I didn't care at that point if I got the job. God just surrounded that place, and you could see and feel Him working within each person and as a whole.
Two days later, I had another interview with another company. Whole Body donations, being the front end/receptionist for them. Yes, I would probably have a hard time discussing with people about a passing or even the benefits of body donation for them financially. So I went in there and give it my best. I get home, lounge around, get another phone call for another prospective job. Then FH calls! "Can you come in tomorrow for a second interview? I know it's short notice." Once again, I felt God working and was amazed!
9:30am, I got there 40 minutes early this time, because Jason warned me about the horrible traffic, which I got there in 25 minutes. So I sat there, filling out a background consent form for the body donation company and talked to God. 9:15, I went in, talked to the receptionist again and two other people that happened to be hanging around. The second interview was mainly so that another person could ask any questions they felt were miss, and since they would be my prospective direct supervisor, they wanted to meet the candidates. Also, had to do a interview with HR. The HR interview I was sort of sweating bullets, but once again was just honest. Maybe it's because I am more of a in the background sort of person and meeting new people makes me nervous. "You should be getting a call back either today or tomorrow, but we are going to try for today."
OK! So I go home, try to eat, FAIL! I just was nervous. I'm one of three people, and they are going to be calling everyone on my reference sheet. What are they going to ask them? I hope that everyone was available to talk when they call. RING! "Hey Raylene, it's ****** from FH, I have a wrong number for one of your references." My heart sank, because I was hoping it was "the call." I quickly found my error and gave her the correct number, but once again my nerves got to me and I was just uneasy for the rest of the night. Next morning, I get a text from one of my references. "I did my best!" Right then and there my nerves were no longer an issue. Once again, I put it in God's hands and enjoyed my day with my husband.
1245pm, "We would like to offer you the position." I nearly screamed yes! I think they realized how happy I was! "Be for we move on, we need you to sign the offer letter and other paper work so that we can do our background check." So, Jason and I go and grab some celebration tacos and head down to FH for me to sign my papers. Once again, the receptionist greeted me and made me feel at home. The Director came next to greet me, "She got the job right? We're hiring her, that's why she's here?" came from the Receptionist. "No, I'm just here to sign thank you for interviewing papers." She looked sad, but the Director quickly asked her, "who did you say you wanted?" She said me! I guess I made a great impression on her like she did me. It made me feel amazing that I was wanted more than just for my skills, but for who I am!
Signed the papers, said goodbye and was told I would start a week from Monday! I'm so excited! I told my parents before posting it on Facebook, which it took a lot of self-control to not type "I got the job." I can't help but feel blessed! I thanked and continue to thank God for this. Without him I would have never found this position, never would have applied, and never would have felt confident during the interviews.
Even though this is an awesome thing, and Jason and I are going to go to dinner tonight and celebrate, I can't help but notice the hardships of those close to me. Accidents, illness, lost. These are my focus now. These are what my prayers are filled with today. I know God is working in these situations as well, and the out come is up to Him. I just pray for peace for these involved and that they are drawn closer to His loving arms.
This week has been amazing! A week ago, I found a posting for a job that just seemed to fill my spirit with so many emotions. After praying, crying, and talking with Jason about it, I applied and put it in God's hands. Literally five hours after I submitted the application, I got a call for an interview opportunity with them. Yes, I have experienced this before, but this was different! I could feel God working, and it was amazing to even just have the opportunity to interview. So Monday, 2pm was my slot with Food for the Hungry.
A friend of mine sent me an article about interviews and wedding rings. After reading it, I talked to Jason a bit about it. "So just wear your band." My engagement ring is pretty big, not my choice. I'm fairly simple, but Jason did the picking and that's what he felt I deserve. That morning, I took my engagement ring off, looked at my hand and realized, "If they judge me on what's on my hand, I don't want to work for them." So I left my rings on.
I get there, 20 minute drive down one highway, but I'm an hour early. So I sit and sit, read an magazine I brought with, and did my best to save gas but not over heat in the Phoenix heat. I was so nervous, my hands were shaking and I just kept talking to God. I finally decide to go inside, and I'm immediately greeted by two ladies (about my age or a little older). Next thing I know, I'm in a personal conversation with the "President of First Impressions" or the Receptionist. Sharing where we are from, me being only married for 2 weeks and moving to Phoenix. It was nice to just have someone willing to just talk and sort of make the whole thing a bit less formal. I never once felt awkward. Final, one of my potential interviewers comes and takes me back to the Director's office. As we were waiting for the Director, she asked me about myself, which after a few sentences I blurted out, "I'm really nervous." We both laughed, and she said she knows the feeling, she was in my situation a few years back, once again, taking the edge off a bit more. She shared a bit more about what the job is and the community of the whole organization.
Finally the Director comes in, and it's laughs and giggles, which just helped me more and more feel more comfortable. The interview went smoothly and actually was really enjoyable. It had to be the best interview I have ever had. I was really excited to be able to share my background including my faith. Some of the questions I gave interesting answers to, but at least I can say I answered them all honestly! I almost started to cry during it, when talking about the emotions and feelings I had when reading the post for the position.
I left the interview feeling so blessed. I didn't care at that point if I got the job. God just surrounded that place, and you could see and feel Him working within each person and as a whole.
Two days later, I had another interview with another company. Whole Body donations, being the front end/receptionist for them. Yes, I would probably have a hard time discussing with people about a passing or even the benefits of body donation for them financially. So I went in there and give it my best. I get home, lounge around, get another phone call for another prospective job. Then FH calls! "Can you come in tomorrow for a second interview? I know it's short notice." Once again, I felt God working and was amazed!
9:30am, I got there 40 minutes early this time, because Jason warned me about the horrible traffic, which I got there in 25 minutes. So I sat there, filling out a background consent form for the body donation company and talked to God. 9:15, I went in, talked to the receptionist again and two other people that happened to be hanging around. The second interview was mainly so that another person could ask any questions they felt were miss, and since they would be my prospective direct supervisor, they wanted to meet the candidates. Also, had to do a interview with HR. The HR interview I was sort of sweating bullets, but once again was just honest. Maybe it's because I am more of a in the background sort of person and meeting new people makes me nervous. "You should be getting a call back either today or tomorrow, but we are going to try for today."
OK! So I go home, try to eat, FAIL! I just was nervous. I'm one of three people, and they are going to be calling everyone on my reference sheet. What are they going to ask them? I hope that everyone was available to talk when they call. RING! "Hey Raylene, it's ****** from FH, I have a wrong number for one of your references." My heart sank, because I was hoping it was "the call." I quickly found my error and gave her the correct number, but once again my nerves got to me and I was just uneasy for the rest of the night. Next morning, I get a text from one of my references. "I did my best!" Right then and there my nerves were no longer an issue. Once again, I put it in God's hands and enjoyed my day with my husband.
1245pm, "We would like to offer you the position." I nearly screamed yes! I think they realized how happy I was! "Be for we move on, we need you to sign the offer letter and other paper work so that we can do our background check." So, Jason and I go and grab some celebration tacos and head down to FH for me to sign my papers. Once again, the receptionist greeted me and made me feel at home. The Director came next to greet me, "She got the job right? We're hiring her, that's why she's here?" came from the Receptionist. "No, I'm just here to sign thank you for interviewing papers." She looked sad, but the Director quickly asked her, "who did you say you wanted?" She said me! I guess I made a great impression on her like she did me. It made me feel amazing that I was wanted more than just for my skills, but for who I am!
Signed the papers, said goodbye and was told I would start a week from Monday! I'm so excited! I told my parents before posting it on Facebook, which it took a lot of self-control to not type "I got the job." I can't help but feel blessed! I thanked and continue to thank God for this. Without him I would have never found this position, never would have applied, and never would have felt confident during the interviews.
Even though this is an awesome thing, and Jason and I are going to go to dinner tonight and celebrate, I can't help but notice the hardships of those close to me. Accidents, illness, lost. These are my focus now. These are what my prayers are filled with today. I know God is working in these situations as well, and the out come is up to Him. I just pray for peace for these involved and that they are drawn closer to His loving arms.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Troubled Mind
It's days like these that I need to print.
I went to bed hours ago, four to be exact, but didn't sleep a wink. I've been crazy all day it seems. Not, I've lost my mind, or I don't I have crossed that line. But simply having anxiety for the last 10 hours of my day. I tried blaming the coffee, the one cup I maybe have a day, but today that wasn't the true case of my funky day.
Phoenix is hot, monochromatic and (your pick). I was not my first choice, or my choice at all, in terms of a place to live. No, don't think I just settled because I got married. I have a purpose here, a God-given purpose, just not sure what that purpose entails exactly. So I'm praying, but mostly dealing with the situation in front of me. It could be worse. I could be homeless, rather than jobless. I could be addicted to drugs or a high school drop out, rather than educated and on the up and up. So why am I unemployable or at least feel that way?
I have a bachelor's, which now a days gets you what? Just above Hobo status, maybe. Depends on the amount of digging or fishing for scrap metal or "treasures." Get a second degree or a master's? Is that what I heard, my dear reader? A master's in my "emphasis" leaves me in the same condition, just more debt and more of a troubling mind. A master's in another area, then? That's a great question, do you have the answer as well? Don't get me wrong. I would not trade my exchange my "trade" for another career path. I am happy with my choice, and made my decision long ago, realizing it was not going to be easy after graduation.
My employment history is... how do you say? Interesting. Out of the few employment endeavor, none are really similar to one another. Nor does my resume (or cover letter) show what I am really made of. So meet with a manager, ok. Do a follow up phone call, ok. In the last two years I have had a total of two actual face-to-face interviews. If you count the skype interview, that's totaling to three. So why do I feel so discouraged? It's all good, right?
Interviewing, that's a joke. I interview so badly, and I have tried to practice with different people or in different ways and nothing! Most of my previous jobs I had a little network help. Either I knew someone personally or was somewhat related. Sucks for me now, cause I had it easy for the most part. "just be yourself" Have we met? I'm sort of a dork, a funny (to myself) kind of person. Not average at all.
But I am grateful that I do have faith in God. Without Him, I think I would be pretty darn worthless at this point. I'm in a pit, a deep one, but know that tomorrow is another day, and that God's Plans for me are coming. Just wished He would let me in on some of it, but it's all on His terms.
I'm also very grateful for the fact He gave me Jason. Without Jason, my faith wouldn't be what it is, or at least that's how I feel. We both have a hard time letting God handle things, but time and time again we give God the credit He deserves. Without God, we would have drowned in Austin, but our heads were always above water. Without God, we both would be two very different people and probably would not have known the love we have for one another.
I appologize for my blog post. I guess I just needed to get my frustrations out of my head and off my heart. I have applied to at least 20 jobs in the last three days, two of which says the hold process will take 8 weeks, at least. I really just need a job now, anything legal. I can't dance, I'm a Baptist. (tacky I know) So those of you who could, please pray for others like myself that need employment. There are two jobs that are really weighing in on my heart that I came across through our church's website, and I have just been praying that one of these is what God has instored for Jason and I.
I went to bed hours ago, four to be exact, but didn't sleep a wink. I've been crazy all day it seems. Not, I've lost my mind, or I don't I have crossed that line. But simply having anxiety for the last 10 hours of my day. I tried blaming the coffee, the one cup I maybe have a day, but today that wasn't the true case of my funky day.
Phoenix is hot, monochromatic and (your pick). I was not my first choice, or my choice at all, in terms of a place to live. No, don't think I just settled because I got married. I have a purpose here, a God-given purpose, just not sure what that purpose entails exactly. So I'm praying, but mostly dealing with the situation in front of me. It could be worse. I could be homeless, rather than jobless. I could be addicted to drugs or a high school drop out, rather than educated and on the up and up. So why am I unemployable or at least feel that way?
I have a bachelor's, which now a days gets you what? Just above Hobo status, maybe. Depends on the amount of digging or fishing for scrap metal or "treasures." Get a second degree or a master's? Is that what I heard, my dear reader? A master's in my "emphasis" leaves me in the same condition, just more debt and more of a troubling mind. A master's in another area, then? That's a great question, do you have the answer as well? Don't get me wrong. I would not trade my exchange my "trade" for another career path. I am happy with my choice, and made my decision long ago, realizing it was not going to be easy after graduation.
My employment history is... how do you say? Interesting. Out of the few employment endeavor, none are really similar to one another. Nor does my resume (or cover letter) show what I am really made of. So meet with a manager, ok. Do a follow up phone call, ok. In the last two years I have had a total of two actual face-to-face interviews. If you count the skype interview, that's totaling to three. So why do I feel so discouraged? It's all good, right?
Interviewing, that's a joke. I interview so badly, and I have tried to practice with different people or in different ways and nothing! Most of my previous jobs I had a little network help. Either I knew someone personally or was somewhat related. Sucks for me now, cause I had it easy for the most part. "just be yourself" Have we met? I'm sort of a dork, a funny (to myself) kind of person. Not average at all.
But I am grateful that I do have faith in God. Without Him, I think I would be pretty darn worthless at this point. I'm in a pit, a deep one, but know that tomorrow is another day, and that God's Plans for me are coming. Just wished He would let me in on some of it, but it's all on His terms.
I'm also very grateful for the fact He gave me Jason. Without Jason, my faith wouldn't be what it is, or at least that's how I feel. We both have a hard time letting God handle things, but time and time again we give God the credit He deserves. Without God, we would have drowned in Austin, but our heads were always above water. Without God, we both would be two very different people and probably would not have known the love we have for one another.
I appologize for my blog post. I guess I just needed to get my frustrations out of my head and off my heart. I have applied to at least 20 jobs in the last three days, two of which says the hold process will take 8 weeks, at least. I really just need a job now, anything legal. I can't dance, I'm a Baptist. (tacky I know) So those of you who could, please pray for others like myself that need employment. There are two jobs that are really weighing in on my heart that I came across through our church's website, and I have just been praying that one of these is what God has instored for Jason and I.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Tied the Knot
Last Saturday was an ending and a new beginning for Jason and I. The days leading up to the grand event was insane. The whole week is a blur!
I head to Flagstaff the Wednesday before, trying my best to get things in order before family arrived that night and the following morning. Spent a little time with my friends, figuring out my makeup(only did half my face), headed to Church for dinner and bible study and "family time" with those there. It was great to catch up and laugh with my church family. I miss them so much.
Thursday family started arriving, delayed flights and bad weather left me a little lonely Wednesday night, but it was rush, rush when my parents and eldest sister arrived. From there it was getting them checked-in, off to the Ma(ll), dinner with a LBC friend that drove up just for our wedding, and waiting for others to arrive, which wasn't until after 11pm. Jason didn't get into until that evening either.
Friday, was once again non-stop. Woke up, had breakfast with Jason, and headed to the church with my parents. It still seemed like we had plenty to do, especially with how much we packed into that little kitchen! I'm thankful for the fact that there were so many people able to help. Even two of our friends showed up to help with decorating the sanctuary. Then it was off to do errands, meet up with Jason's sister (roommate for the night) and then back to the church for rehearsal.
After rehearsal, which went smoothly thanks to my family's experience with weddings(this being the seventh one), it was a trip downtown with the girls! I had a blast and realized how much I missed them all and our good times together.
Saturday
8AM-Hair Appointment
So through the help of one of my bridesmaids, we got a stylist/hairdresser for doing five people's hair pre-wedding. We were told to be there at 8am, which three of us(including me) were 15 minutes late, but figured it wasn't going to be that bad. The Stylist arranged with me the 8am call time so that we would be at the church no later than 11am(12pm ceremony). So 15 minutes still gave us plenty of time to drive the maybe 5 minutes to the church and get dressed before the big shindig. WRONG!
Let me explain a bit more about the situation. I paid a nice amount of money, actually cheaper than a family friend charges for a bridal party, and I think I only got mediocre service. I'm no perfectionist, I mean, I did my own makeup with the help of my friends and new sister-in-law. But there is some things that are expected that I didn't think we received on this "purchase." The stylist brought in her co-owner/co-worker, which helped the call time be later. If they were not down for helping that morning, all five of us would've been at the salon at 530AM, so I am thankful they we willing! Also, I paid X amount of dollars to get up to six people's hair done, but there was only five of us, so I figured that would just be a nice extra tip for their pocket to be used towards whatever.
I was discouraged two weeks before this day, since the stylist told me that it would be at least an hour per person, which I thought was craziness! Our family friend recently did my little brother's wedding, which was the same amount of girls as mine (bride+4). She did five updo's in 30 minutes! I was reassured it was to give some extra time in case something had to be changed.
We arrived, and the two stylist started working. It was nice that they supplied some type of breakfast for us, which was nice. I tried to eat, but I think the fact that I realized I was getting married later, my nerves got the best of me. The first hour pasts, and they are still working on the first two people's hair. Finally at 10AM one of them finished and started on the next person. Meanwhile, the co-stylist is still working on his first person. I start to freak out, so I focus on my makeup, which I never wear. Jason's sister was a great help, even though she did hardly anything.
1045am, Co-stylist finishes with his first head of hair, and honestly he did barely anything. They styled her hair, looked it over, and decided it wasn't what they wanted. Not my bridesmaid, but the Co-stylist. So they started over. UGH! I tried my best to relax, but I was starting to sweat it a lot, especially since I didn't want to keep people waiting. Plus, I was hungry, and knew there was Bar-B-Q waiting for me! So Jason's sister is next, and they decide to do a French Twist (GOOGLE IMAGE SEARCH).
Easy Peasy, right? They curled her hair!?! Why would you curl it for a do that needs to be smooth?
11AM, I finally get my turn in the hot seat. At this point, I'm praying the Stylist just gets it done, but she needed a cigarette break! SERIOUSLY!?! I was promised if we were there at 8am that morning, we would be out of there by 11am. IT'S ELEVEN!
Co-stylist- What time are you guys suppose to be there(at the church)?
Me- Eleven.
Co-Stylist- What time is it now?
Me- Eleven
So they curl my hair, let them set, and I was finished before Jason's sister. Seriously, a French Twist is easy! Why is it taking that long to pin hair and curl wispies? So my hair & makeup is done, three of the four have makeup and hair, and I'm trying my best to wait so we all can go over together. Jason's sister gave me the ok to take off to the church, as long as someone stayed with her. I felt horrible, along with angry and nervous.
Co-Stylist- I'm just pinning right now, it will go fast.
Stylist- Yeah, that's the easy part of the twist, the pinning.
Sister- (Glare)
So three of us leave, get to church, and dress quickly. I feel like we are completely holding up the whole ceremony! I actually cried a little because of my frustration and feeling I had no control over the situation. Then the two others arrive. I give my gifts, help them get dressed, and we line up in the hallway. During this time I had no clock to look at, so I kept thinking the worst.
The music starts, and it hits me, this isn't rehearsal anymore. Maid #1 goes, then Maid #2, then #3, #4, and then my three year old niece. My Dad and I approach the doors, and I start to tear up. "I'm on my Dad's arm, this is real." The music starts, and we enter. "Oh, I have you on the wrong side," my Dad remarks. "So let's trade," and we did a do-si-do. I'm in near tears, but trying to hold my composer. My Dad's voice cracks as he announces he and my mother are giving me away. I loose it! Jason meets me, helps me up the stairs and to where the preacher is. Next thing I know we are saying "I Do" and then our vows. Next the presenting of rings, or wings in our case(family tradition/joke). Light the candle and then presented as Mr. & Mrs!
I barely remember key parts of that day, like how I even got in my dress. I'm so grateful for my family and friends that were there to share that moment with us. We didn't do some "traditional" or normal wedding things, but it still was an amazing day!
I'm also thankful for the Car Show that happened to be that weekend, and can hardly wait to see our pictures! Most of all we both are very happy that we got to spend time with our family that weekend, even if it was only for a few moments at a time.
So I'm married... Still can't completely believe it. Jason and I are still adjusting to the new titles we have for one another, and he's adjusting to his ring. I will try to post pictures on here, as an update to this one, or a new entry.
I head to Flagstaff the Wednesday before, trying my best to get things in order before family arrived that night and the following morning. Spent a little time with my friends, figuring out my makeup(only did half my face), headed to Church for dinner and bible study and "family time" with those there. It was great to catch up and laugh with my church family. I miss them so much.
Thursday family started arriving, delayed flights and bad weather left me a little lonely Wednesday night, but it was rush, rush when my parents and eldest sister arrived. From there it was getting them checked-in, off to the Ma(ll), dinner with a LBC friend that drove up just for our wedding, and waiting for others to arrive, which wasn't until after 11pm. Jason didn't get into until that evening either.
Friday, was once again non-stop. Woke up, had breakfast with Jason, and headed to the church with my parents. It still seemed like we had plenty to do, especially with how much we packed into that little kitchen! I'm thankful for the fact that there were so many people able to help. Even two of our friends showed up to help with decorating the sanctuary. Then it was off to do errands, meet up with Jason's sister (roommate for the night) and then back to the church for rehearsal.
After rehearsal, which went smoothly thanks to my family's experience with weddings(this being the seventh one), it was a trip downtown with the girls! I had a blast and realized how much I missed them all and our good times together.
Saturday
8AM-Hair Appointment
So through the help of one of my bridesmaids, we got a stylist/hairdresser for doing five people's hair pre-wedding. We were told to be there at 8am, which three of us(including me) were 15 minutes late, but figured it wasn't going to be that bad. The Stylist arranged with me the 8am call time so that we would be at the church no later than 11am(12pm ceremony). So 15 minutes still gave us plenty of time to drive the maybe 5 minutes to the church and get dressed before the big shindig. WRONG!
Let me explain a bit more about the situation. I paid a nice amount of money, actually cheaper than a family friend charges for a bridal party, and I think I only got mediocre service. I'm no perfectionist, I mean, I did my own makeup with the help of my friends and new sister-in-law. But there is some things that are expected that I didn't think we received on this "purchase." The stylist brought in her co-owner/co-worker, which helped the call time be later. If they were not down for helping that morning, all five of us would've been at the salon at 530AM, so I am thankful they we willing! Also, I paid X amount of dollars to get up to six people's hair done, but there was only five of us, so I figured that would just be a nice extra tip for their pocket to be used towards whatever.
I was discouraged two weeks before this day, since the stylist told me that it would be at least an hour per person, which I thought was craziness! Our family friend recently did my little brother's wedding, which was the same amount of girls as mine (bride+4). She did five updo's in 30 minutes! I was reassured it was to give some extra time in case something had to be changed.
We arrived, and the two stylist started working. It was nice that they supplied some type of breakfast for us, which was nice. I tried to eat, but I think the fact that I realized I was getting married later, my nerves got the best of me. The first hour pasts, and they are still working on the first two people's hair. Finally at 10AM one of them finished and started on the next person. Meanwhile, the co-stylist is still working on his first person. I start to freak out, so I focus on my makeup, which I never wear. Jason's sister was a great help, even though she did hardly anything.
1045am, Co-stylist finishes with his first head of hair, and honestly he did barely anything. They styled her hair, looked it over, and decided it wasn't what they wanted. Not my bridesmaid, but the Co-stylist. So they started over. UGH! I tried my best to relax, but I was starting to sweat it a lot, especially since I didn't want to keep people waiting. Plus, I was hungry, and knew there was Bar-B-Q waiting for me! So Jason's sister is next, and they decide to do a French Twist (GOOGLE IMAGE SEARCH).
Easy Peasy, right? They curled her hair!?! Why would you curl it for a do that needs to be smooth?11AM, I finally get my turn in the hot seat. At this point, I'm praying the Stylist just gets it done, but she needed a cigarette break! SERIOUSLY!?! I was promised if we were there at 8am that morning, we would be out of there by 11am. IT'S ELEVEN!
Co-stylist- What time are you guys suppose to be there(at the church)?
Me- Eleven.
Co-Stylist- What time is it now?
Me- Eleven
So they curl my hair, let them set, and I was finished before Jason's sister. Seriously, a French Twist is easy! Why is it taking that long to pin hair and curl wispies? So my hair & makeup is done, three of the four have makeup and hair, and I'm trying my best to wait so we all can go over together. Jason's sister gave me the ok to take off to the church, as long as someone stayed with her. I felt horrible, along with angry and nervous.
Co-Stylist- I'm just pinning right now, it will go fast.
Stylist- Yeah, that's the easy part of the twist, the pinning.
Sister- (Glare)
So three of us leave, get to church, and dress quickly. I feel like we are completely holding up the whole ceremony! I actually cried a little because of my frustration and feeling I had no control over the situation. Then the two others arrive. I give my gifts, help them get dressed, and we line up in the hallway. During this time I had no clock to look at, so I kept thinking the worst.
The music starts, and it hits me, this isn't rehearsal anymore. Maid #1 goes, then Maid #2, then #3, #4, and then my three year old niece. My Dad and I approach the doors, and I start to tear up. "I'm on my Dad's arm, this is real." The music starts, and we enter. "Oh, I have you on the wrong side," my Dad remarks. "So let's trade," and we did a do-si-do. I'm in near tears, but trying to hold my composer. My Dad's voice cracks as he announces he and my mother are giving me away. I loose it! Jason meets me, helps me up the stairs and to where the preacher is. Next thing I know we are saying "I Do" and then our vows. Next the presenting of rings, or wings in our case(family tradition/joke). Light the candle and then presented as Mr. & Mrs!
I barely remember key parts of that day, like how I even got in my dress. I'm so grateful for my family and friends that were there to share that moment with us. We didn't do some "traditional" or normal wedding things, but it still was an amazing day!
I'm also thankful for the Car Show that happened to be that weekend, and can hardly wait to see our pictures! Most of all we both are very happy that we got to spend time with our family that weekend, even if it was only for a few moments at a time.
So I'm married... Still can't completely believe it. Jason and I are still adjusting to the new titles we have for one another, and he's adjusting to his ring. I will try to post pictures on here, as an update to this one, or a new entry.
Friday, June 10, 2011
Less than 100
And I'm pretty sure I'm nowhere close to being prepared for it at all. Roughly three months until Jason and I tie that knot, and I'm not even sure what we have been doing during this time. I'm trying hard not to stress out, because I know some things we won't be able to be sure of until later, but I can't help but think and feel that I'm behind some how.
My dress should be arriving soon, which I can hardly wait to put it on. I still need shoes and other things, but my dress will make my decisions a little more easier to make once I have it. Or at least I think it will. Jason has gone to look at tuxes, but nothing concrete that I know of as of late. I knows the style, but that's about it.
I'm getting the invitations done, all I need are the stamps at this point. They should be arriving tomorrow, if not Saturday. Then off the invitations go! Jason wanted to help with them, but due to time and me not getting out there until after the 20th, I sat down and did them. I was shocked that we are gonna get to save a bit of money on stamps, since they are lighter than most invites and within the size requirements for the standard rate.
I got back on track about working out, even started a new routine. First week I worked out five days, even though my goal was at least do cardio all seven days. Then week two started out strong, but come Tuesday I have a fever, sore throat and cough, which I'm still battling it seems. I am hardly ever sick like this, and this week I was suppose to be getting ready for a yard sale on Saturday. I just pray I wake up tomorrow feeling at 90% so I'm able to be more functional. Also, I want to get back into my routine!
I still am on the prowl for employment. After my last interview in Flagstaff, I'm a bit discouraged about looking there as an out-of-state applicant. Since then I have been applying to more jobs in the Phoenix area than even anywhere in California. I guess mostly because Jason is already there, and he's a little discouraged about the market and cost of living out here. Also, Phoenix is only 1.5-2 hours south of Flagstaff. We are both just looking to God to show us where we are to be. I may start being more serious about jobs here in California, I'm praying about one up North, not sure I should apply or not. But a job is a job, and this chick needs one!
I mostly started this blog entry because I cannot fall asleep at all it seems. For the last week I have been up until early morning, sometimes even dawn, for no reason. I mean I feel tired, I get into to bed and just lay there no longer tired. Or toss and turn all night and get maybe five hours. It's probably because I have been sick, but doesn't your body heal better when you actually sleep? In the past when I've been sick, I usually crash for hours, but this go around I'm bright eyed until morning. I still function for the most part like any other day, even with lack of sleep. I really hope I'm not starting go develop some horrible sleep pattern or disorder.
I should try to close my eyes...
My dress should be arriving soon, which I can hardly wait to put it on. I still need shoes and other things, but my dress will make my decisions a little more easier to make once I have it. Or at least I think it will. Jason has gone to look at tuxes, but nothing concrete that I know of as of late. I knows the style, but that's about it.
I'm getting the invitations done, all I need are the stamps at this point. They should be arriving tomorrow, if not Saturday. Then off the invitations go! Jason wanted to help with them, but due to time and me not getting out there until after the 20th, I sat down and did them. I was shocked that we are gonna get to save a bit of money on stamps, since they are lighter than most invites and within the size requirements for the standard rate.
I got back on track about working out, even started a new routine. First week I worked out five days, even though my goal was at least do cardio all seven days. Then week two started out strong, but come Tuesday I have a fever, sore throat and cough, which I'm still battling it seems. I am hardly ever sick like this, and this week I was suppose to be getting ready for a yard sale on Saturday. I just pray I wake up tomorrow feeling at 90% so I'm able to be more functional. Also, I want to get back into my routine!
I still am on the prowl for employment. After my last interview in Flagstaff, I'm a bit discouraged about looking there as an out-of-state applicant. Since then I have been applying to more jobs in the Phoenix area than even anywhere in California. I guess mostly because Jason is already there, and he's a little discouraged about the market and cost of living out here. Also, Phoenix is only 1.5-2 hours south of Flagstaff. We are both just looking to God to show us where we are to be. I may start being more serious about jobs here in California, I'm praying about one up North, not sure I should apply or not. But a job is a job, and this chick needs one!
I mostly started this blog entry because I cannot fall asleep at all it seems. For the last week I have been up until early morning, sometimes even dawn, for no reason. I mean I feel tired, I get into to bed and just lay there no longer tired. Or toss and turn all night and get maybe five hours. It's probably because I have been sick, but doesn't your body heal better when you actually sleep? In the past when I've been sick, I usually crash for hours, but this go around I'm bright eyed until morning. I still function for the most part like any other day, even with lack of sleep. I really hope I'm not starting go develop some horrible sleep pattern or disorder.
I should try to close my eyes...
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
The Jitters
I have done my best, for the last two days at least, to not think about my interview tomorrow. I have even tried to keep myself busy by looking at wedding things and talking to my sister and bridesmaids. But now, I have done everything I needed to do, and can't help be get caught up with the thoughts of what to expect tomorrow.
Jason is going up there with me tomorrow, along with two of our friends. So it will be a full car, and hopefully that will help with my nerves.
Jason is going up there with me tomorrow, along with two of our friends. So it will be a full car, and hopefully that will help with my nerves.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Homesick and Nervous
I have been visiting Phoenix for about two weeks now, and planned to head home tomorrow. The visit has allowed me to get some things done with Jason in regards to our wedding, but other than that I have sort of been up a creek without a paddle. By no means am I stranded, I have my truck and could go anywhere I wanted, just don't want to waste my expensive fuel or get lost in a place I have never really cared to explore.
My stay has been extended, and for good reasons, but I was looking to be home and feel more productive. This past Friday, I received an amazing phone call. I have an interview for a job up in Flagstaff this Thursday afternoon. I'm very excited for this opportunity and really want this. I need a job for one, but I've been longing to be back in Flagstaff for a long time. But I'm stressing about my performance. I haven't had a job in almost a year, and in that time I have only had one interview (February 2011) and I got burned. I'm not completely sure I have fully recovered from that.
I miss my home and my parents. I feel like I haven't seen them in forever, and I think it's because I was starting the "I'm leaving" set of mind when I got the phone call. I guess I sort of don't like "change of plans." I know it's for a great reason as to my departure has been postponed. I know if I get this position, I am going to be leaving for longer, actually relocating. Which I'm ok, I love Flagstaff, I know the city, and home isn't too far. So don't get me wrong, I understand it sounds a little contradicting, but moving is different than a visit.
So any prayers for this interview would be greatly appreciated. It's in God's hands, and I'm glad He is in control.
My stay has been extended, and for good reasons, but I was looking to be home and feel more productive. This past Friday, I received an amazing phone call. I have an interview for a job up in Flagstaff this Thursday afternoon. I'm very excited for this opportunity and really want this. I need a job for one, but I've been longing to be back in Flagstaff for a long time. But I'm stressing about my performance. I haven't had a job in almost a year, and in that time I have only had one interview (February 2011) and I got burned. I'm not completely sure I have fully recovered from that.
I miss my home and my parents. I feel like I haven't seen them in forever, and I think it's because I was starting the "I'm leaving" set of mind when I got the phone call. I guess I sort of don't like "change of plans." I know it's for a great reason as to my departure has been postponed. I know if I get this position, I am going to be leaving for longer, actually relocating. Which I'm ok, I love Flagstaff, I know the city, and home isn't too far. So don't get me wrong, I understand it sounds a little contradicting, but moving is different than a visit.
So any prayers for this interview would be greatly appreciated. It's in God's hands, and I'm glad He is in control.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Retailer Wanted
Seriously, just one little favor, and I totally won't bother you ever again. I'm trying to cut down on cost, mostly with the little details/decorations for our wedding by doing things myself or with the help of family members. One thing was using the pew decorations later as centerpieces at the reception, since I found a DIY on cute little baskets filled with Orchids. Well, with each bloom being at least 5 dollars, and maybe needing 5-7 blooms per basket, for about 16 pews (ever other one), that's way more than I wanna spend. All the florist were ok with me taking on the task, but were open to either doing them or selling me the sprays I would need. So my other option was artifical, which is fine by me as long as they look good.
My mom and I had looked at Michael's, but I wasn't serious enough then about purchasing anything at the time. Also, I just figured I would go online, find them for a screaming deal, and not have to worry about even going with a florist. The construction seemed easy, even though I may take another route in terms of container, and my sisters said they would definitely help. My little brother mentioned that in LA's flower district they also sell artificials, and that I should go look. Again, not being completely commited to anything yet, I have put it off. Well sort of, I was going to ask my mom if she wanted to go a few Mondays ago, but George was born. Which holding a baby and playing with Henry is better than walking around Downtown LA in my opinion.
So today, I've been doing my online research, mostly for Cymbidiums, but we are also using the Dendrobiums for the Maids/Groomsmen. I found a place that sells just the blooms if wanted, ONLY if you have already purchased their $400 dollar bridal package. They are even the Real/Natural/Fresh Touch or Floramatique type, which are latex of some kind or other material to give the more realistic look. One place I found basically would give me the best deal, but at the bottom it says they don't sell to the public. But I'm wondering if I could coax someone one, say my mom's hair dress/family friend into "purchasing" them for me. Or if it has to be an actual Floral Retailer. I'm just bummed, because everywhere else it seems they don't have them for the right price, or they aren't as nice or similar to what we are using in our floral attire.
Maybe simple really isn't simple
My mom and I had looked at Michael's, but I wasn't serious enough then about purchasing anything at the time. Also, I just figured I would go online, find them for a screaming deal, and not have to worry about even going with a florist. The construction seemed easy, even though I may take another route in terms of container, and my sisters said they would definitely help. My little brother mentioned that in LA's flower district they also sell artificials, and that I should go look. Again, not being completely commited to anything yet, I have put it off. Well sort of, I was going to ask my mom if she wanted to go a few Mondays ago, but George was born. Which holding a baby and playing with Henry is better than walking around Downtown LA in my opinion.
So today, I've been doing my online research, mostly for Cymbidiums, but we are also using the Dendrobiums for the Maids/Groomsmen. I found a place that sells just the blooms if wanted, ONLY if you have already purchased their $400 dollar bridal package. They are even the Real/Natural/Fresh Touch or Floramatique type, which are latex of some kind or other material to give the more realistic look. One place I found basically would give me the best deal, but at the bottom it says they don't sell to the public. But I'm wondering if I could coax someone one, say my mom's hair dress/family friend into "purchasing" them for me. Or if it has to be an actual Floral Retailer. I'm just bummed, because everywhere else it seems they don't have them for the right price, or they aren't as nice or similar to what we are using in our floral attire.
Maybe simple really isn't simple
Friday, April 22, 2011
Consults and Insults
Well not so much in terms of insults, just feel like we were taken on a long, bumpy ride.
In the last 24 hours, Jason and I have met with two on Thursday, and four today, and I'm completely spent. I never ever want to do that again. I understand, neither one of us is in town, so it's a trip to even meet with the pastor, but to have back to back appointments is too much. But we did learn a lot, especially in our last floral appointment. We mainly were just pricing out cost of things, to get an idea of what we could maybe do without, or at least of a better idea on what is normal. For the most part, we are waiting on those prices/estimates.
We do have our bridal party locked down, plus or minus ushers and one unconfirmed groomsmen, but at least I have my ladies! I'm so excited, and decided on a dress for them last night, so hopefully they get the chance soon to go and look/try it on. I'm hoping it's not too expensive, since anything wedding seems to add an extra $50+ to anything, even candles. I'm more excited about getting married now than I was when we set the date. Probably because things seem to be getting checked off our list, rather than be pushed around or just talked about.
We may have our florist locked in too, but want to wait to hear back from the others we talked to, just to seem fair. I was so grateful and flustered when our last floral appointment gave me bad news within the first 2 minutes. So everywhere we went prior to this appointment said nothing about "complicated" flowers do to Flagstaff's climate. I love Cymbidium Orchids, especially the green ones. My Grandma Lawson used to grow them, and remind me of her. Well, they are pricey little blooms. One florist priced them out at $15 per, another as low
as $5 per bloom. So to cut back on cost I thought I would use Hydrangeas to give the fuller look of the bouquets for myself and my maids, but being quite cheaper for more surface area covered. I really liked the dome shape, but not being completely uniformed and having some type of alternating texture and focal points. So, trying to stay as consistent as possible to our first floral ideas, mainly as a control for pricing comparisons, I stated I was looking to use Cymbids and Hydrangeas for my bouquet, "Hydrangeas only last 30 minutes up here," said our last florist. I was shocked, because no one else had mentioned anything about that, and it didn't even cross my mind that would be an issue. I'm glad she said something, but it did make our visit a lot longer, we basically had to start over. She also went over and asked about things that no one else even tried to dance around. She asked about a toss bouquet, informed us that something we decided for our moms' was not appropriate for "ladies to wear" and basically pulled out half her store to help us visualize our estimate. Her honestly, knowledge and personal attention to us I think helped the consult no be so sterile and business like. We actually detoured a few times talking about traditions or past brides. She seemed relieved that we weren't too extreme about anything, like most bridezilla's and undecisive people she has dealt with in the past. I think this was the best consult we had, it was actually a fun experience. Even though the rest of the results are still waiting to be recorded, I'm pretty sure we may just end up working with her.
We went by church and met with the pastor about the ceremony and to touch base on counseling. He gave us sample vows that he has used before, including the ones he used for his daughter's wedding three years ago. We sort of skimmed them over, but definitely will look at them more seriously, and make some edits if we feel the need. We did talk a bit about the ceremony, which Jason and I have details to work out, and having the reception outside on the westside of the building, which will need some grounds work done, but Jason and I are willing to come help with that.
With the last two days, I feel stronger about moving up to Flagstaff, even if it's just for until after the wedding, though I hope and pray it would be longer. Definitely need to talk to certain people and make sure I'm not being too drastic, but the job market is so bad, I'm pretty sure my out-of-town/state status is a big negative sign to all employers there. Maybe if I go up there, I will have a better chance of getting a job. I just need to trust God more, and pray, and let others know I need prayer.
In the last 24 hours, Jason and I have met with two on Thursday, and four today, and I'm completely spent. I never ever want to do that again. I understand, neither one of us is in town, so it's a trip to even meet with the pastor, but to have back to back appointments is too much. But we did learn a lot, especially in our last floral appointment. We mainly were just pricing out cost of things, to get an idea of what we could maybe do without, or at least of a better idea on what is normal. For the most part, we are waiting on those prices/estimates.
We do have our bridal party locked down, plus or minus ushers and one unconfirmed groomsmen, but at least I have my ladies! I'm so excited, and decided on a dress for them last night, so hopefully they get the chance soon to go and look/try it on. I'm hoping it's not too expensive, since anything wedding seems to add an extra $50+ to anything, even candles. I'm more excited about getting married now than I was when we set the date. Probably because things seem to be getting checked off our list, rather than be pushed around or just talked about.
We may have our florist locked in too, but want to wait to hear back from the others we talked to, just to seem fair. I was so grateful and flustered when our last floral appointment gave me bad news within the first 2 minutes. So everywhere we went prior to this appointment said nothing about "complicated" flowers do to Flagstaff's climate. I love Cymbidium Orchids, especially the green ones. My Grandma Lawson used to grow them, and remind me of her. Well, they are pricey little blooms. One florist priced them out at $15 per, another as low
as $5 per bloom. So to cut back on cost I thought I would use Hydrangeas to give the fuller look of the bouquets for myself and my maids, but being quite cheaper for more surface area covered. I really liked the dome shape, but not being completely uniformed and having some type of alternating texture and focal points. So, trying to stay as consistent as possible to our first floral ideas, mainly as a control for pricing comparisons, I stated I was looking to use Cymbids and Hydrangeas for my bouquet, "Hydrangeas only last 30 minutes up here," said our last florist. I was shocked, because no one else had mentioned anything about that, and it didn't even cross my mind that would be an issue. I'm glad she said something, but it did make our visit a lot longer, we basically had to start over. She also went over and asked about things that no one else even tried to dance around. She asked about a toss bouquet, informed us that something we decided for our moms' was not appropriate for "ladies to wear" and basically pulled out half her store to help us visualize our estimate. Her honestly, knowledge and personal attention to us I think helped the consult no be so sterile and business like. We actually detoured a few times talking about traditions or past brides. She seemed relieved that we weren't too extreme about anything, like most bridezilla's and undecisive people she has dealt with in the past. I think this was the best consult we had, it was actually a fun experience. Even though the rest of the results are still waiting to be recorded, I'm pretty sure we may just end up working with her.We went by church and met with the pastor about the ceremony and to touch base on counseling. He gave us sample vows that he has used before, including the ones he used for his daughter's wedding three years ago. We sort of skimmed them over, but definitely will look at them more seriously, and make some edits if we feel the need. We did talk a bit about the ceremony, which Jason and I have details to work out, and having the reception outside on the westside of the building, which will need some grounds work done, but Jason and I are willing to come help with that.
With the last two days, I feel stronger about moving up to Flagstaff, even if it's just for until after the wedding, though I hope and pray it would be longer. Definitely need to talk to certain people and make sure I'm not being too drastic, but the job market is so bad, I'm pretty sure my out-of-town/state status is a big negative sign to all employers there. Maybe if I go up there, I will have a better chance of getting a job. I just need to trust God more, and pray, and let others know I need prayer.
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Ups and Downs...
But at least I'm getting notice of my rejections. I have been looking, off and on for the moment, for employment, but have been unsuccessful. But I am grateful to be getting at least a letter stating that they selected another candidate. Yeah, I would rather have a job offer, or at least a phone call for interview. Especially since the last time I went out on a limb, I got burned and knocked down a bit. I drove 1000 miles round trip in a snow storm for an interview, just to spend two days in a stressful daze, just to be told "thank you for your time."
Also, the wedding planning is slow, and I really think it's mostly for the fact that I'm out-of-state from our venue. I know I have a lot of people willing to help, but do I really want that help? Even with doing the Save the Dates, which will be going out tomorrow, I was asked if I needed/wanted any help, and I turned it down. I wasn't complaining about doing them, I actually enjoyed doing it. Just put on some music or something on tv and just work away. I think I'm too stubborn and would rather do it on my own. But I'm realizing with the lack of progress, I may have to hand over some tasks. I just hope I find the right people to trust with these things. Most of them are fairly small.
Jason is trying his best to get his resume out and find a better job, even if it's not in Flagstaff. We are both praying for the right job to come along, and I'm pretty much willing to move anywhere, except Phoenix. Lame I know, especially since Jason is already there, but there is nothing appealing about Phoenix. But I may just have to suck it up and take whatever it is that happens, even if it's Phoenix.
Also, the wedding planning is slow, and I really think it's mostly for the fact that I'm out-of-state from our venue. I know I have a lot of people willing to help, but do I really want that help? Even with doing the Save the Dates, which will be going out tomorrow, I was asked if I needed/wanted any help, and I turned it down. I wasn't complaining about doing them, I actually enjoyed doing it. Just put on some music or something on tv and just work away. I think I'm too stubborn and would rather do it on my own. But I'm realizing with the lack of progress, I may have to hand over some tasks. I just hope I find the right people to trust with these things. Most of them are fairly small.
Jason is trying his best to get his resume out and find a better job, even if it's not in Flagstaff. We are both praying for the right job to come along, and I'm pretty much willing to move anywhere, except Phoenix. Lame I know, especially since Jason is already there, but there is nothing appealing about Phoenix. But I may just have to suck it up and take whatever it is that happens, even if it's Phoenix.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Nip Tuck, While I Bike
It's the easiest way for me to actually get a work out in. I already can sit in front of the TV for hours, mainly because I have done it before, and recently did might I add. So, so far I have worked out at least two days this week, even though I was shooting for five, but two is better than one or even none.
Yesterday, I had my first interview since October 2010. I applied for a position with Goodwill Industries of Northern Arizona Tuesday afternoon, and thirty minutes I get a phone call to set up an interview. Since the job is in Flagstaff, I felt a bit stressed out the last two days. Mainly because I was concerned about travel costs and when I would travel. I had already planned to be in Flagstaff a week from today, since I was going to go visit Jason next week in Peoria and head up for a few days. Well, with the need for an "interview" asap, I was debating on driving the seven hours to meet in person, which is costly and I would have to try to coordinate with a friend or two about possible sleeping arrangements (which I hate intruding). The other was to possibly take the train, rent a car, and head back immediately via the train as well. The train lacks showers, as well as my truck, so again I would have to make arrangements with a friend or two in town in regards to "freshening up" before the interview. Finally, do I just inform them that I will be there the following week and would gladly interview then, but maybe lose the opportunity and job itself? Lucky for me, God was there, and made yesterday happen.
The Director who called me on Tuesday offered up doing a Skype interview. Problem: I currently didn't own a webcam, but luckily for me, I have been looking to get one, just haven't. So after asking family if they owned one or their opinion on which ones are good quality, I bought one, tested it out with both Jason and my sister, Rhonda. Then I called the Director, "how about we do it in thirty minutes?" I agreed, but just made me more nervous than before. Jason prayed with me via skype, which was weird, but I'm grateful that he did.
The interview went well, started off a bit rocky, but towards the end, I felt strong about it. The Director was a bit concerned about the fact that I am 500 miles away at the moment, but I assured him I could just pack up and leave. Didn't really explain in to details that it would entail me basically living out of a duffel bag for a few weeks and couching it at friends house, but I basically would do anything to have a job right now. Even if the situation was that I got hired today and needed to start work tomorrow. I basically would be packing up and leaving at this moment to get out there.
He wants to do a face-to-face interview, which is fine, but is concerned that next Thursday maybe too late in the week, and having me drive out for an hour interview would be unfair to me. I reassured him that I am flexible, and realize that their is an immediate need to fill this position. So today I will find out about weather or not my interview will be earlier or later next week.
Telling Jason about the packing up and basically saying I would be willing to start the next day bums him out a lot. Next week would be the first time I have seen him since last month when I went out. So if I interview earlier in the week and end up working, there won't be the days we were planning to be together. He even got three days off, and a half day Thursday. He knows that this is important for the both of us, but can't help but be a bit upset. But if I get the job, he and I will only be a max 2 hours away from one another, rather than six or more.
Jason was recently offered a job with KNAU in Flagstaff, but it's strictly part-time, and only the weekends for little pay. Right now, he feels that he can't take it. It's not enough hours or pay to move him to the area, and commuting would not be worth it at all. But maybe something will come up soon for him that allows him to take it or another job. I know the job with KNAU would fit him perfectly, and he would enjoy doing it.
I'm so grateful that God made the situation where I could get an initial interview and it only costing me $30 dollars rather than $181+ food and such. If this is the job he wants for me, so be it, and He will make it happen. We shall see what he has in stored as I grow even more.
Yesterday, I had my first interview since October 2010. I applied for a position with Goodwill Industries of Northern Arizona Tuesday afternoon, and thirty minutes I get a phone call to set up an interview. Since the job is in Flagstaff, I felt a bit stressed out the last two days. Mainly because I was concerned about travel costs and when I would travel. I had already planned to be in Flagstaff a week from today, since I was going to go visit Jason next week in Peoria and head up for a few days. Well, with the need for an "interview" asap, I was debating on driving the seven hours to meet in person, which is costly and I would have to try to coordinate with a friend or two about possible sleeping arrangements (which I hate intruding). The other was to possibly take the train, rent a car, and head back immediately via the train as well. The train lacks showers, as well as my truck, so again I would have to make arrangements with a friend or two in town in regards to "freshening up" before the interview. Finally, do I just inform them that I will be there the following week and would gladly interview then, but maybe lose the opportunity and job itself? Lucky for me, God was there, and made yesterday happen.
The Director who called me on Tuesday offered up doing a Skype interview. Problem: I currently didn't own a webcam, but luckily for me, I have been looking to get one, just haven't. So after asking family if they owned one or their opinion on which ones are good quality, I bought one, tested it out with both Jason and my sister, Rhonda. Then I called the Director, "how about we do it in thirty minutes?" I agreed, but just made me more nervous than before. Jason prayed with me via skype, which was weird, but I'm grateful that he did.
The interview went well, started off a bit rocky, but towards the end, I felt strong about it. The Director was a bit concerned about the fact that I am 500 miles away at the moment, but I assured him I could just pack up and leave. Didn't really explain in to details that it would entail me basically living out of a duffel bag for a few weeks and couching it at friends house, but I basically would do anything to have a job right now. Even if the situation was that I got hired today and needed to start work tomorrow. I basically would be packing up and leaving at this moment to get out there.
He wants to do a face-to-face interview, which is fine, but is concerned that next Thursday maybe too late in the week, and having me drive out for an hour interview would be unfair to me. I reassured him that I am flexible, and realize that their is an immediate need to fill this position. So today I will find out about weather or not my interview will be earlier or later next week.
Telling Jason about the packing up and basically saying I would be willing to start the next day bums him out a lot. Next week would be the first time I have seen him since last month when I went out. So if I interview earlier in the week and end up working, there won't be the days we were planning to be together. He even got three days off, and a half day Thursday. He knows that this is important for the both of us, but can't help but be a bit upset. But if I get the job, he and I will only be a max 2 hours away from one another, rather than six or more.
Jason was recently offered a job with KNAU in Flagstaff, but it's strictly part-time, and only the weekends for little pay. Right now, he feels that he can't take it. It's not enough hours or pay to move him to the area, and commuting would not be worth it at all. But maybe something will come up soon for him that allows him to take it or another job. I know the job with KNAU would fit him perfectly, and he would enjoy doing it.
I'm so grateful that God made the situation where I could get an initial interview and it only costing me $30 dollars rather than $181+ food and such. If this is the job he wants for me, so be it, and He will make it happen. We shall see what he has in stored as I grow even more.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Seven Months, Tomorrow
And boy do I feel behind. I guess I have been focusing on other things, or just flat out avoiding certain things on my check list.
Have I been working out, not consistently, but hopefully after Saturday that will change a bit. I am borrowing my brother's stationary bike, which I would rather ride a bike than ruin what's left of my knees on a treadmill. I have reduced my intake a bit, but not so much on my choices. Changing habits is so hard, especially with my current situation. At least on the bike, I can watch tv or a movie, which is what I usually do first thing in the morning anyway. So why not get my heart racing and earn some back up calories for when I go over for the day.
Also, even though I have been cutting back, I'm still over my limit of calories per day, but I'm pretty sure the program I am going off of is unhealthy, seeing how I'm 27, female, I should be eating more than 1330 per day. And soda is my biggest struggle right now, so I'm trying to drink water before I have a soda. But I have been eating around 2200, which I think is just fine for me, and I know it will go up once I get back into my rhythm of working out six days a week.
Our wedding plans haven't advanced very much. I have yet to go try on any dresses, though I sort of already know what I want, and may end up using a family source to get it made. I also have not picked my attendants, sad I know. Jason had his picked out probably before we even met, minus the fourth, which I guess I get to pick. I have been looking mostly online at dress styles, and may have narrowed down the three I get to pick, but still feel a little unsure about my choices. Maybe I'm just worried they will say no.
I think out of all the wedding stuff, we only have our ceremony/reception site settled, but there may be hiccups about the reception site. We haven't had time to go and discuss what we are allowed to do, but we did got walk the grounds a few weeks back to see what might work. Jason is concerned with the children that will be there, as if we need to have some sort of entertainment for them. He even suggested having his XBox and my Wii available for them to use, which I don't like the idea, especially if the reception is outside. Weddings are such hard work, and I have barely gotten started. I just want it to be over with, but not so much that I'm willing to elope (his family's only tradition).
I am so grateful for my family though. My Mom has been helpful, even with my complaints about disagreements or frustrations. I'm hoping to go look at dresses soon, and hopefully my sisters will be able to attend and give their suggestions. My Mom and I were out last week, and she suggested we look at bridesmaids gowns, and went to one shop, and maybe stayed 20 minutes, just looking. Then we drove to another one, and as we pulled in, I read one of the windows and it said "LDS Gowns." I said it out loud, and laughed. My Mom thought I was joking, but pointed it out just to clear any doubt she had. We decided we wouldn't go in. LOL!
I hope in the next few weeks to get some of this chaos done...
Have I been working out, not consistently, but hopefully after Saturday that will change a bit. I am borrowing my brother's stationary bike, which I would rather ride a bike than ruin what's left of my knees on a treadmill. I have reduced my intake a bit, but not so much on my choices. Changing habits is so hard, especially with my current situation. At least on the bike, I can watch tv or a movie, which is what I usually do first thing in the morning anyway. So why not get my heart racing and earn some back up calories for when I go over for the day.
Also, even though I have been cutting back, I'm still over my limit of calories per day, but I'm pretty sure the program I am going off of is unhealthy, seeing how I'm 27, female, I should be eating more than 1330 per day. And soda is my biggest struggle right now, so I'm trying to drink water before I have a soda. But I have been eating around 2200, which I think is just fine for me, and I know it will go up once I get back into my rhythm of working out six days a week.
Our wedding plans haven't advanced very much. I have yet to go try on any dresses, though I sort of already know what I want, and may end up using a family source to get it made. I also have not picked my attendants, sad I know. Jason had his picked out probably before we even met, minus the fourth, which I guess I get to pick. I have been looking mostly online at dress styles, and may have narrowed down the three I get to pick, but still feel a little unsure about my choices. Maybe I'm just worried they will say no.
I think out of all the wedding stuff, we only have our ceremony/reception site settled, but there may be hiccups about the reception site. We haven't had time to go and discuss what we are allowed to do, but we did got walk the grounds a few weeks back to see what might work. Jason is concerned with the children that will be there, as if we need to have some sort of entertainment for them. He even suggested having his XBox and my Wii available for them to use, which I don't like the idea, especially if the reception is outside. Weddings are such hard work, and I have barely gotten started. I just want it to be over with, but not so much that I'm willing to elope (his family's only tradition).
I am so grateful for my family though. My Mom has been helpful, even with my complaints about disagreements or frustrations. I'm hoping to go look at dresses soon, and hopefully my sisters will be able to attend and give their suggestions. My Mom and I were out last week, and she suggested we look at bridesmaids gowns, and went to one shop, and maybe stayed 20 minutes, just looking. Then we drove to another one, and as we pulled in, I read one of the windows and it said "LDS Gowns." I said it out loud, and laughed. My Mom thought I was joking, but pointed it out just to clear any doubt she had. We decided we wouldn't go in. LOL!
I hope in the next few weeks to get some of this chaos done...
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Here We Go Again...
Around this time, two years ago, I was single, one my own and overweight, but in Five months I lost 20 lbs. Since then I have gotten back to where I started, just a few pounds shy of my original starting weight two years ago. I just need to get motivated again, and it was easier then since I was single and had a PE class twice a week. I also changed what I was eating, even though I went out to eat almost every night with my friends.
Now, I'm a relationship, living at home, and doing little to be active. Jason has lost 50lbs since May, and is still trying to lose more. So while I was out there, he and I would go walk Gracie every other night. And I don't mean just around the block, I mean like 2.5 miles minimum. Since I got back a week ago, I have maybe worked out via Wii once, and only for 20 minutes. I just find a lot of excuses as to why I can't or won't take the time to do it.
Also, I'm not buying the groceries anymore. Yes, my Mom has asked many times as to what I like to eat, which I share, but if she fixes dinner, I'll eat it. If there is something that seems to be more tasty I will eat it instead of other things I should be eating. I need a total reprogramming of my habits.
I assure you, this isn't just because I'm due to say 'I do" in seven months, this is because I need to feel healthy again. I really would like to run road races again, but can't in my current condition.
I guess I just sort of had a wake up call today, and realized I need to get my butt in gear. And do realize it's better with a buddy...
Now, I'm a relationship, living at home, and doing little to be active. Jason has lost 50lbs since May, and is still trying to lose more. So while I was out there, he and I would go walk Gracie every other night. And I don't mean just around the block, I mean like 2.5 miles minimum. Since I got back a week ago, I have maybe worked out via Wii once, and only for 20 minutes. I just find a lot of excuses as to why I can't or won't take the time to do it.
Also, I'm not buying the groceries anymore. Yes, my Mom has asked many times as to what I like to eat, which I share, but if she fixes dinner, I'll eat it. If there is something that seems to be more tasty I will eat it instead of other things I should be eating. I need a total reprogramming of my habits.
I assure you, this isn't just because I'm due to say 'I do" in seven months, this is because I need to feel healthy again. I really would like to run road races again, but can't in my current condition.
I guess I just sort of had a wake up call today, and realized I need to get my butt in gear. And do realize it's better with a buddy...
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
STRESS!
Not so much by my own demise, but by those around me. It all relates to our wedding day, but they are small potatoes or things, I feel like, they should already know. UGH!!!! I don't expect my day to be this extravagant, black tie, coat check, formal event. Neither of us are that type of person, so why would we try to be for our day. We both just want to share that day with our Family and Friends, with little to no stress.
Wedding planning is going slow at the moment, mainly because Jason and I have some things to discuss still and figure out. I still need to talk to our ceremony/reception site about what is required or available to us; or if we need to seek other resources. It's a lot harder doing all this, in my opinion, since our venue isn't close to where we both are currently located. I'm glad that I do have people there willing to help out if needed, just haven't asked anyone yet.
My family is being supportive, especially just for stress relieving. My sister, Retah, let me barrow a book to read, The Christian Wedding Planner, which has some good points. I hope to finish it by this weekend. My main stress I guess is money. I don't know what to expect to pay for things, I guess this is when sisters are good to have.
Jason and I are still trying to find employment in Flagstaff, so far we both have had no luck. I'm hoping something comes through for Jason soon. He's beyond frustrated with his job in Phoenix; Actually almost quit today due to his supervisor. I need to do better about applying to jobs, but it just gets old constantly applying and submitting resumes.
I know God has a plan for the both of us, but now that we are getting married, it's more like us together. Jason is more concerned about the distance, which I understand, but that will change soon. I'm more concerned about finding a job in Flagstaff, and moving there.
Wedding planning is going slow at the moment, mainly because Jason and I have some things to discuss still and figure out. I still need to talk to our ceremony/reception site about what is required or available to us; or if we need to seek other resources. It's a lot harder doing all this, in my opinion, since our venue isn't close to where we both are currently located. I'm glad that I do have people there willing to help out if needed, just haven't asked anyone yet.
My family is being supportive, especially just for stress relieving. My sister, Retah, let me barrow a book to read, The Christian Wedding Planner, which has some good points. I hope to finish it by this weekend. My main stress I guess is money. I don't know what to expect to pay for things, I guess this is when sisters are good to have.
Jason and I are still trying to find employment in Flagstaff, so far we both have had no luck. I'm hoping something comes through for Jason soon. He's beyond frustrated with his job in Phoenix; Actually almost quit today due to his supervisor. I need to do better about applying to jobs, but it just gets old constantly applying and submitting resumes.
I know God has a plan for the both of us, but now that we are getting married, it's more like us together. Jason is more concerned about the distance, which I understand, but that will change soon. I'm more concerned about finding a job in Flagstaff, and moving there.
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