Wednesday, May 4, 2011

The Jitters

I have done my best, for the last two days at least, to not think about my interview tomorrow. I have even tried to keep myself busy by looking at wedding things and talking to my sister and bridesmaids. But now, I have done everything I needed to do, and can't help be get caught up with the thoughts of what to expect tomorrow.

Jason is going up there with me tomorrow, along with two of our friends. So it will be a full car, and hopefully that will help with my nerves.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Homesick and Nervous

I have been visiting Phoenix for about two weeks now, and planned to head home tomorrow. The visit has allowed me to get some things done with Jason in regards to our wedding, but other than that I have sort of been up a creek without a paddle. By no means am I stranded, I have my truck and could go anywhere I wanted, just don't want to waste my expensive fuel or get lost in a place I have never really cared to explore.

My stay has been extended, and for good reasons, but I was looking to be home and feel more productive. This past Friday, I received an amazing phone call. I have an interview for a job up in Flagstaff this Thursday afternoon. I'm very excited for this opportunity and really want this. I need a job for one, but I've been longing to be back in Flagstaff for a long time. But I'm stressing about my performance. I haven't had a job in almost a year, and in that time I have only had one interview (February 2011) and I got burned. I'm not completely sure I have fully recovered from that.

I miss my home and my parents. I feel like I haven't seen them in forever, and I think it's because I was starting the "I'm leaving" set of mind when I got the phone call. I guess I sort of don't like "change of plans." I know it's for a great reason as to my departure has been postponed. I know if I get this position, I am going to be leaving for longer, actually relocating. Which I'm ok, I love Flagstaff, I know the city, and home isn't too far. So don't get me wrong, I understand it sounds a little contradicting, but moving is different than a visit.

So any prayers for this interview would be greatly appreciated. It's in God's hands, and I'm glad He is in control.