I've been trying to look for employment, but I find myself looking for Jason more than myself. He thinks that he's not qualified for some of the ones I have forwarded to him, which I just think he's under estimating himself. One of the jobs I found was with JPL in Pasadena, California, his first gripe, "I don't want to live in Pasadena." just because the job is there, doesn't mean you have to live there. The job is with Television Broadcasting and I think he fits the discription perfectly. He really, really wants to quit Sears and be done with them. It's now a daily topic, and I think he may go through with it. I just hope he gets is resume and letters out and will at least have some hope for something new in the near future.

I almost want to give up the whole finding a job and just go back to school full-time, but I would just be doing undergrad stuff once again that won't count for anything except personal advancement. I've been trying to find class schedules for the two community colleges by my parents house, but they do not have their fall schedule posted online. Reasons I would go back full-time rather than part-time: If I can get financal aide and can defer student loans.

I'm looking mostly at CSULB and CSUN for grad school. I'm also looking at a school in Oakland and possibly Portland, Oregon. Not sure which is the better, but it's good to have options, right?

25 and Counting...

Everyone at church on Sunday were sad to hear we are actually leaving, but besides the whole leaving part, most asked about Jason and I. "Are you going to do the long distance thing?" seemed to be the main question. I could only answer with an "I don't know?" I think it was mostly because I didn't want to cry in front of people, or go into a lot of detail. I've done the long distance before, but that was only for a few months, this is an unknown amount of time that we will be away from one another. Jason is already trying it seems to make plans for visits, which are all waiting on unknown variables.

Jason still doesn't have a job in Phoenix, and would like to NOT have to transfer through Sears. He has discussed the possibility of just quiting and moving back and seeing what God does. He knows God provides and has been providing for us in every way, but Jason's really tired of working for this company, and has been screwed over repeatedly. But he does also realize he has responsibilities, and has to be realistic.

I have no job, I might have a Summer job, but that hasn't been discussed very much. I've been focusing more on taking classes in the Fall at the community colleges by my house. Even got in touch with one of my former instructors from Cerritos. I hope it works out, I should really do a FASFA.

Even Sooner

We upped our moving date a whole week. The fact that we were going to be moving over Memorial Day weekend would have been more expensive than going before or after. So to avoid vacation traffic and holiday gas hikes, we are leaving Austin, Texas on May 22nd. I originally thought I would have to leave some of my stuff in Pheonix and make a trip back to get it all, but the cost of the moving truck is less than half if we drop it off in Long Beach rather than Pheonix. Sort of bums me out a bit, mostly because I most likely won't get to visit Flagstaff like I wanted, but I'll try for in June. Also, it means saying goodbye to Jason at the airport.

I've been very emotional during this whole week, cried for three days, just because everything is being finalized and reality is setting in. Jason and I will be six hours away from one another, but visiting will be near impossible due to the fact I will not have a source of income once I get home and Jason still hasn't heard anything from potiental jobs in Pheonix. And the cost of seeing one another is like an added payment in our life of student loans and bills. He eventually wants to get out to California, since the film industry is based on the West Coast. I didn't know it was going to be like this, and if I did, I would probably be in Flagstaff this whole time. Shoulda, couldas.

A few days ago, I had a breaking point. With the constant knowledge that my degree only gives me hope of unemployment, I am going back to school to get my MFA. I have always desired to work on a college level, even when I was studying Kinesiology. There are jobs all over the Nation to teach studio art classes at colleges and universities, and I have found a bunch for Printmaking. I thought coming out to Austin I could get into the industry and eventually get into UT Austin's MFA program. But the economy caused the most hiccups in my plan to do so. So once I get back to Long Beach I'm going back to school. Audit some studio classes (drawing, printmaking and maybe some Graphic Design), and get my act and portfolio together. No more excuses about more debt, cause without MFA, I will just continue to be in debt. Hopefully I can defer my loans while taking some lower level art classes. I just need studio space really, and motivation.

So lately, people from High School, mostly former teammates, have been adding me as their friends on Facebook. One person recently added was one of my former coaches. I knew him before I even attended high school since my older sister ran under his coaching as well, which caused some problems for me through all four years of high school. I actually had somewhat of a falling out with him my Senior year, when I was actually kicked off the Cross Country team. Well yesterday he contacts me, asking where I was working, and to call him when I get back, all via instant messaging. I was really confused, as if he needed something from me, which upon asking, he said no. I'm not looking to have a reunion with people from high school. All the people that I cared to keep a relationship with after high I have done so until either bridges were gated off or contact was simply lost. I really have only kept in contact with my friend Paul Sudduth, in more than a "hey we know each other" friendship. Plus, most of the people that are or would be connected to this coach, are people who turned their backs on me for the most part, some even lied to get me introuble, so why would I want to hang out or see there people? Don't get me wrong, I'm glad that they are well and seeking friendship of some kind, but it's not high school anymore. We shall see what happens next.

Only four more weeks...

Correction

So now, as of this morning, Jason and I will be leaving Texas as of May 29th. So I have about two months to find a job and place to move to. I'm sort of happy about leaving as soon as possible, though we will be required to pay June's Rent. At this point I'm willing to take a hit to just get out of this town.

Clarification

The other day, even before I left the house for work, Jason calls me upset. Well, more than just upset. In the last few weeks, his hours got cut, so he's no longer full-time, and business has been really slow. He went into work that day, to find out that people are taking his ticket, thus the money that he worked to get, is being given to someone else. It's easy to do, since all they have to do is ring it up as their sale, even if Jason is the one that did.

Also, he has discovered that we have been kind of swindled by our landlords. Other houses in our area are price much lower than what we have been paying, and a lot of them are much nicer looking homes. So that has kind of put him over the edge, since it seems like we haven't been getting any breaks out here.

He was so mad and angry, he is really thinking about putting in his two weeks. But he did state he wants out of Texas on June 19th. Our lease is up as of June 30th, and the house is suppose to be on the market now, which it isn't, which just adds to Jason's frustration.

I want to quit my job too, it's not worth it, and I'm loosing respect for my supervisors. I asked a simple question, but get a lengthy response which doesn't answer anything, only causing me to be more confused. This job is ridiculous in how they expect us to do these things, but they don't even communicate. I really feel like I could do a better job than they do, but then again, I only know a bit about what it is they do.

I do plan on being home in early June for my cousin's California wedding reception, I'll be putting in my request this week for those days. Too bad it won't be sooner.

Looks like...

June 19th I'll be heading back.

Rambles; More Like Grumbles

I realize that I've been blogging mostly my complaints on here. Who would want to read that, at least not every entry. So I'm doing my best to no complain, because things are not as bad as my blog precieves.

My order came the other day, and my excitement has yet to disapate. Though I'm still in need of a few key items before I can do my first print, I'm on cloud nine still. Still need hinge clamps, a board, and screen filler. There are a few other things, but can get by without them for the time being. Eventually, I'll have a full functioning shop. I was really impressed with the quailty of my screen, and definitely will order from this company again, especially since it only took two days for everything to arrive, and shipping was FREE! Sadly, they are geared more towards commerical printing, but just means I have to go somewhere else for the rest, which isn't a big deal for me. I'll definitely will post my first edition once I get it pulled. I know I will have hiccups, since it's been so long since I even did serigraphy. I think it's been two years...