Nip Tuck, While I Bike

It's the easiest way for me to actually get a work out in. I already can sit in front of the TV for hours, mainly because I have done it before, and recently did might I add. So, so far I have worked out at least two days this week, even though I was shooting for five, but two is better than one or even none.

Yesterday, I had my first interview since October 2010. I applied for a position with Goodwill Industries of Northern Arizona Tuesday afternoon, and thirty minutes I get a phone call to set up an interview. Since the job is in Flagstaff, I felt a bit stressed out the last two days. Mainly because I was concerned about travel costs and when I would travel. I had already planned to be in Flagstaff a week from today, since I was going to go visit Jason next week in Peoria and head up for a few days. Well, with the need for an "interview" asap, I was debating on driving the seven hours to meet in person, which is costly and I would have to try to coordinate with a friend or two about possible sleeping arrangements (which I hate intruding). The other was to possibly take the train, rent a car, and head back immediately via the train as well. The train lacks showers, as well as my truck, so again I would have to make arrangements with a friend or two in town in regards to "freshening up" before the interview. Finally, do I just inform them that I will be there the following week and would gladly interview then, but maybe lose the opportunity and job itself? Lucky for me, God was there, and made yesterday happen.

The Director who called me on Tuesday offered up doing a Skype interview. Problem: I currently didn't own a webcam, but luckily for me, I have been looking to get one, just haven't. So after asking family if they owned one or their opinion on which ones are good quality, I bought one, tested it out with both Jason and my sister, Rhonda. Then I called the Director, "how about we do it in thirty minutes?" I agreed, but just made me more nervous than before. Jason prayed with me via skype, which was weird, but I'm grateful that he did.

The interview went well, started off a bit rocky, but towards the end, I felt strong about it. The Director was a bit concerned about the fact that I am 500 miles away at the moment, but I assured him I could just pack up and leave. Didn't really explain in to details that it would entail me basically living out of a duffel bag for a few weeks and couching it at friends house, but I basically would do anything to have a job right now. Even if the situation was that I got hired today and needed to start work tomorrow. I basically would be packing up and leaving at this moment to get out there.

He wants to do a face-to-face interview, which is fine, but is concerned that next Thursday maybe too late in the week, and having me drive out for an hour interview would be unfair to me. I reassured him that I am flexible, and realize that their is an immediate need to fill this position. So today I will find out about weather or not my interview will be earlier or later next week.

Telling Jason about the packing up and basically saying I would be willing to start the next day bums him out a lot. Next week would be the first time I have seen him since last month when I went out. So if I interview earlier in the week and end up working, there won't be the days we were planning to be together. He even got three days off, and a half day Thursday. He knows that this is important for the both of us, but can't help but be a bit upset. But if I get the job, he and I will only be a max 2 hours away from one another, rather than six or more.

Jason was recently offered a job with KNAU in Flagstaff, but it's strictly part-time, and only the weekends for little pay. Right now, he feels that he can't take it. It's not enough hours or pay to move him to the area, and commuting would not be worth it at all. But maybe something will come up soon for him that allows him to take it or another job. I know the job with KNAU would fit him perfectly, and he would enjoy doing it.

I'm so grateful that God made the situation where I could get an initial interview and it only costing me $30 dollars rather than $181+ food and such. If this is the job he wants for me, so be it, and He will make it happen. We shall see what he has in stored as I grow even more.

Seven Months, Tomorrow

And boy do I feel behind. I guess I have been focusing on other things, or just flat out avoiding certain things on my check list.

Have I been working out, not consistently, but hopefully after Saturday that will change a bit. I am borrowing my brother's stationary bike, which I would rather ride a bike than ruin what's left of my knees on a treadmill. I have reduced my intake a bit, but not so much on my choices. Changing habits is so hard, especially with my current situation. At least on the bike, I can watch tv or a movie, which is what I usually do first thing in the morning anyway. So why not get my heart racing and earn some back up calories for when I go over for the day.

Also, even though I have been cutting back, I'm still over my limit of calories per day, but I'm pretty sure the program I am going off of is unhealthy, seeing how I'm 27, female, I should be eating more than 1330 per day. And soda is my biggest struggle right now, so I'm trying to drink water before I have a soda. But I have been eating around 2200, which I think is just fine for me, and I know it will go up once I get back into my rhythm of working out six days a week.

Our wedding plans haven't advanced very much. I have yet to go try on any dresses, though I sort of already know what I want, and may end up using a family source to get it made. I also have not picked my attendants, sad I know. Jason had his picked out probably before we even met, minus the fourth, which I guess I get to pick. I have been looking mostly online at dress styles, and may have narrowed down the three I get to pick, but still feel a little unsure about my choices. Maybe I'm just worried they will say no.

I think out of all the wedding stuff, we only have our ceremony/reception site settled, but there may be hiccups about the reception site. We haven't had time to go and discuss what we are allowed to do, but we did got walk the grounds a few weeks back to see what might work. Jason is concerned with the children that will be there, as if we need to have some sort of entertainment for them. He even suggested having his XBox and my Wii available for them to use, which I don't like the idea, especially if the reception is outside. Weddings are such hard work, and I have barely gotten started. I just want it to be over with, but not so much that I'm willing to elope (his family's only tradition).

I am so grateful for my family though. My Mom has been helpful, even with my complaints about disagreements or frustrations. I'm hoping to go look at dresses soon, and hopefully my sisters will be able to attend and give their suggestions. My Mom and I were out last week, and she suggested we look at bridesmaids gowns, and went to one shop, and maybe stayed 20 minutes, just looking. Then we drove to another one, and as we pulled in, I read one of the windows and it said "LDS Gowns." I said it out loud, and laughed. My Mom thought I was joking, but pointed it out just to clear any doubt she had. We decided we wouldn't go in. LOL!

I hope in the next few weeks to get some of this chaos done...

Here We Go Again...

Around this time, two years ago, I was single, one my own and overweight, but in Five months I lost 20 lbs. Since then I have gotten back to where I started, just a few pounds shy of my original starting weight two years ago. I just need to get motivated again, and it was easier then since I was single and had a PE class twice a week. I also changed what I was eating, even though I went out to eat almost every night with my friends.

Now, I'm a relationship, living at home, and doing little to be active. Jason has lost 50lbs since May, and is still trying to lose more. So while I was out there, he and I would go walk Gracie every other night. And I don't mean just around the block, I mean like 2.5 miles minimum. Since I got back a week ago, I have maybe worked out via Wii once, and only for 20 minutes. I just find a lot of excuses as to why I can't or won't take the time to do it.

Also, I'm not buying the groceries anymore. Yes, my Mom has asked many times as to what I like to eat, which I share, but if she fixes dinner, I'll eat it. If there is something that seems to be more tasty I will eat it instead of other things I should be eating. I need a total reprogramming of my habits.

I assure you, this isn't just because I'm due to say 'I do" in seven months, this is because I need to feel healthy again. I really would like to run road races again, but can't in my current condition.

I guess I just sort of had a wake up call today, and realized I need to get my butt in gear. And do realize it's better with a buddy...